I am more than halfway done with Absolution so I wanted to share an excerpt. I'm writing this book with multiple first person POVs. This excerpt is from Cole's perspective.
“I’m sorry,” I said as I gripped Mace’s face with my hands. “So sorry,” I repeated as I pulled him forward and began kissing away the damp tears that still flooded his skin. He quieted under my ministrations and the bruising hold on my arms eased but he didn’t release me. I could feel his soft breath against my lips as I reached his mouth and we both held there for several long seconds until I finally slanted my mouth over his.
Like with Jonas, I’d meant the kiss to be brief and comforting but I knew Mace needed more when he automatically opened for me. I let my tongue brush his before I gently explored every surface of his mouth. I knew he was vulnerable so I didn’t deepen the kiss any further and when I pulled back, I waited to see if he would lash out at me. But he didn’t. Instead, he wrapped his arms around me and drew me close and then settled his face against my neck. I held him as tight as I could until I felt a hand settle on my back.
Guilt went through me that Jonas had witnessed the kiss but I couldn’t make myself regret it. Nor did I regret kissing Jonas. I didn’t know what to make of that but I didn’t have to think on it for too long because the second Mace relinquished his hold on me, Jonas reached up to stroke his hand over Mace’s face before pulling him down for a kiss. It was nothing like the passionate one I’d witnessed between them the night before in the gallery but it was just as intense.
“Let’s go lay down for a bit, okay?” Jonas said to Mace even as his hand closed around mine. Mace managed a nod as he wiped at his face. As I followed Jonas and Mace up the stairs I knew I was crossing a line I wouldn’t be able to come back from. Not only had I taken the leap into the deep end in terms of exploring my sexuality this morning when I’d kissed Jonas for the first time, I was building a connection with not one but two men and I had no idea what that meant for any of us. I knew what was about to happen between us wasn’t about sex since Mace was way too vulnerable for that but that almost made it worse because what we were seeking in each other wasn’t about pleasure – it was about so much more.
We ended up in the master bedroom which had a king sized bed. None of us removed any clothes other than our shoes and Jonas urged Mace to get under the covers before crawling in next to him. I went around to the other side of the bed and climbed in. Mace and Jonas were both lying on their sides facing each other and Mace had one arm under Jonas’s head and the other wrapped around his waist. But as soon as I pressed up against Mace’s back with my front, his hand sought out mine and then he was pulling my arm around his chest. I linked my fingers with his and pressed our connected hands against his sternum and rested my head on his shoulder. I felt Jonas’s hand settle on the arm I had wrapped around Mace and I smiled because with the one move, Jonas had made sure we were all connected.
Just like we were supposed to be.